Poetry

Surviving 

9/21/25 

Dead inside: 

my heart is tearing– 

held together by threads. 

I am crumbling– 

falling to pieces: 

bad times keep happening; 

No wise words seem to save. 

I know I’ll survive; 

yet, taking things 

one breath at a time. /

I am talking or praying 

to God, 

whom I am not sure 

I believe in. 

I am not getting answers– 

I have the time to keep asking.  

Take life, 

One breath at a time. 

She 

9/21/25 

She grew up 

in a place 

where she learned: 

to be quiet; 

her feelings didn’t matter; 

she was on her own: 

trying to figure out who she was, 

and where she belonged in the world. /

She taught herself the ways of the world,  

through tough lessons 

no little girl should learn on her own. 

The sweet, innocent child inside her 

quickly built a wall 

to protect her: 

she had to be too strong, too soon. /

Now, when she faces a problem, 

and doesn’t know what to do– 

she isolates and retreats 

as she did when she was young; 

she hides her pain, 

becomes distant and quiet 

to protect herself  

because no one else will. /

She knows: 

she has always been,  

and always will be 

her own island. 

I Found Him 

9/21/25 

When I wasn’t looking, 

I found him,  

and we found love.  

I found him  

When I needed him most. 

I found him, 

and was never the same. /

I lost him 

when I loved him   

the most. 

The best part of me  

was him.  

When he left, 

he took those parts with him. /

I never expected him to mean so much. 

Or losing him to hurt  

my entire soul 

I lost not only him, 

but our future I picture; 

all the moments we shared, 

and the ones that remained. 

I lost his comfort and protection. 

Part of me will never be the same. /

I never thought I’d feel  

this type of pain– 

the weight of heartache: 

Is love even worth it? 

Yet, I know: 

Losing him hurts this much  

because I found him. 

Reality 

9/26/25 

Life is a dream: / 

We play the game 

until reality is new, 

and our changed reality 

is no longer a game, 

but a new reality. /

What if we have to say goodbye? 

There may be no tomorrow. 

I don’t know want to think about possibilities,

or what they all mean.

Lost, confused,

and I am not sure  
I want to do live like this

anymore.

But if I have to, have to live this way,

I want to do live it with you…

If the world was over tomorrow,  

I’d want to be next to you– 

to hold you,  

because our world  

is the only reality 

I want to fight for.  

The Game

12/19/2025

We’re two souls in one:

we’ve been through a journey—

shared history, destiny.

Why should I complain?

Somewhere deep inside

you must know I miss you,

but what can I do?

Rules must be obeyed.

Every time you disappear

you take a piece of

my soul, our soul

into the silence.

You can apologize;

it won’t change a thing:

there is no winner, no glory;

we’re both hurting.

Every time you go away

The game is on; new again—

Are we lovers, friends?

We always end the same.

I stand by as you depart,

watching our soul flee.

Who’s to blame?

Or is this how we’re meant to be?

You Are Not Alone

1/24/2026

Last night, I dreamed

you called out to me:

asking me to come;

hold you, tight. /

You never said goodbye:

How did we let us slip away?

Why’d you have to go? /

I feel you in my heart;

you’re part of my soul–

I pray for you;

your burdens I share. /

Let me hold your hand;

our forever can begin.

Though we’re far apart–

I carry you with me. 

You are not alone;

I’m always with you.

I am here to stay.

Where

1/27/2026

I took us for granted—

we held each other’s hearts.

Now, I’d give anything

to stare deep into your eyes;

lay by your side. /

I don’t know where to start

Beg? Plead?

Forgiveness?

I am searching for answers

I don’t know how I find. /

I feel lost, desperate—

don’t know where you are,

or how to keep hold of us.

You’re the only place I want to be:

my destiny; my destination.

Where are you and me?

The Fairy Tale Life

1/28/26

Not all girls

meet a man;

fall heal-over-heels,

have the dream wedding,

have babies, dogs, the house,

for a lifetime of bliss.

Not all girls

live the fairy tale life. /

What if this girl’s dream man

is a figure, a figment, a fracture–

(Who disappears and then reappears

without any notice;

lifting all my hopes up

only to let them down, again);

a broken,, damn heart. /

No, not every girl

lives the fairy tale life.

Promise

2/17/2026

I made a promise

to me and to you:

I’d put some space;

some distance, between us—

wasn’t supposed to be,

feel like a goodbye;

meant to be “see you later.” /

I deserve a prize

for my resistance,

for my restraint.

Why can’t I let us go?

Why can’t I keep this promise?

Why do I do this to myself?

No matter how long I rest you,

I will forever lose.

I hurt to be something,

but worse to be nothing

with you.

Light On the Ocean

5/9/26

I’m an ocean–

rolling in; crashing.

I begin not to love you;

(I loved you years ago)

feel you never loved me.

You’ve loved others,

so did I,

Was it worth it?

Can you tell me–

I don’t want/can’t know. /

Time has distanced us;

re-written our story,

like the sun sets on the rolling waters.

You won’t forget me.

I could’ve loved yo9u;

You would not let me.

I will follow you down to the deepest depths;

where light can no longer reach,

my memories will haunt you;

you’ll never escape the life we shared–

the love once shared-

painful to remember; forget.

Our light on the ocean

will never fade with the tide. 

The Bridge that Separates

5/10/26

We always think

we’ll have tomorrow.

You’ve crossed a bridge;

I can’t find you anymore.

If I can’t be next to you+,

I’ll live in our memories.

We need more time–

it’s not ours to have,

and we can’t borrow any more.

I’d leave everything behind,

but I can’t follow you:

the love you left 

is all I have.

Free

5/10/26

If you were to leave me tomorrow,

I promise to always remember you.

I know you must go–

if you stayed with me

things could never be the same:

we both know, we cannot change. 

We’ve loved from sunrise to sunset–

do not blame yourself

for your need to be free.

I know who you are,

who I fell in love with.

The reasons I love you

are the reasons I must let you be free.

You Are Never Alone

8/25/26

Thinking of you in this moment

we’re in a timelapse:

a series of photographs of our love–

from the past, the now, the future.

Always almost touching

then drifting apart.

I’ve given more than you’ve taken.

I pray I’ll be the one you need:

you are never alone;

you don’t have to be;

we can fall apart together–

I am here when you need.

You have my heart;

we share a soul:

You are never alone. 

I vow for worse or for better;

I vow in sickness and health

from now until forever

we carry each other’s burdens.

My shoulder is yours to

lean on, cover in tears, whatever you need.

Let me wrap you in warmth,

hold you in comfort:

you don’t have to do life on your own

because you are never alone.